Day 51

man today was just....

i dont even know like a mash potatoes of emotions?

happy. excited. tired. sad.

i'm exhausted but in a good way i guess?

life can't always be chill

last night while i was walking back

i was like ok its getting real now.

tomorrow imma start living right and there's no turning back.

wake up at an abnormally early time.

(by myself without even an alarm clock)

man...God's hardcore.

to go meet with the evangelism team

i have no idea what is in store for me this morning...

meet with the EMMAUS leaders Andy and Rona.

and i happen to be the only one that wakes up and shows up...

but Andy is like all mellow and cool about it like yeahhh it's meant to be this way.

mmmm okay cool. whoa...i am like overwhelmed with the presence of the spirit coming from this guy...

we pray and do this thing where we just spend time listening and write down whatever comes to our mind.

My list went like this.

Abundant love, bridge, sun, birds (drew a picture), and tunnel.

Andy's list:

Tall white guy, color green, high five.

Rona's list:

Classroom, black briefcase, yellow bag, girl wearing all black/ has long hair, black bird.

Andy says we're going on a treasure hunt.

basically the people are the treasure and our lists are the clues.

first we head towards New Millenium Hall cause it has lots of classrooms.

look around and then all the sudden this tall white guy comes out of the classroom.

and then we start talking to him. and he just talks comfortably with us.

and its like oh man that's him tall white guy on andy's list.

we show him the list, tell him what we're doing, and ask if we can pray for him and stuff.

he let's us and it also turns out he's a christian too.

i hope this is a wake up call for him.

doode...it's starting to get cool.

next we walk around campus and Andy feels like we should enter this building.

find a green bulletin board and decide to check it out.

on the green bulletin board there is a map and on the map there are three thumbtacks.

there's one on New Millenium Hall and 2 other places. whoa...it's like the X marks.

while we are looking at this board. a man with a black briefcase walks by.

and we're like ohhh snap. what to do what to do. and Andy being the wise old man is like.

mmmmm just let him walk by.

the man with the black briefcase walks by. then turns around and looks at us and says "what?"

no way....

we talk to him for a bit. and he seems very rushed and busy like he dont wanna be stopped in the middle of his busy day to talk to some christians jehovah witness style what not.

but then andy gets the wisdom to pray for his son. we dont even know if he has a son.

just as the man is about to walk away we ask if he has a son.

and it turns out he does. a 4 year old boy.

we ask him if we can pray for him and for his son real quick.

he lets us. and Andy tells him that he feels his son is very special. and I can see that the man's face changed a little.

We're walking to our next destination and Andy tells me to start praying as we walk.

When I saw that man I understood that he's probably very busy with work/routine life. And judging from the fact that he reeked with alcohol. im guessing stay out late drinking with work buddies type? and not much a family man.

but today his family will be restored. and his son who i feel has been lacking attention from his father will receive love from his father. that God may teach this man how to love his son. and when one member of a household is saved so will the rest of the household be saved.

We meet up with Anna at the eagle statue.

and walk towards the subway.

past the mural of birds (that look like the ones i drew)

stop in front of the bridge with the sun shining to our right.

make a right and walk underneath the tunnel.

this is kinda fun....

Andy says to look out for the woman with the bright yellow bag.

and as he is saying this we see the woman carrying a bright yellow bag.

Andy and Anna stand back and Rona and I approach the woman.

She is talking on her cell phone and looks pretty stressed out.

She tells us to hold on. and we wait for her.

Rona believes that she is stumbling in life and I agree.

When she's done talking on the phone she's like huff puff "what do yo want"

we tell her whatsup what we've been doing and stuff and she like okay....

ask her how her day's been. and she says she's been pretty tired and stressed out.

we ask if we can pray for her. and she lets us.

we pray for her and i dont even know if she understands what we are saying.

but afterwards i could see for sure that her face just changed.

she seemed really encouraged...

i hope that this lady finds rest in God's love and be filled with peace and joy for the rest of the day.

there are birds flying over us..

the only one left on the list is the girl with the long hair, wearing black.

Andy tells Rona and Anna to walk ahead this time and he and I will linger back.

I think Rona finds the girl cause Andy says to walk away and let them be.

We pray for Rona and Anna and this girl.

Then Andy tells me to do something interesting.

He tells me to close my eyes and imagine the scenario.

mmm...okay....

i'm kinda nervous...cause what if what i'm saying is completely bogus..

but i try my best to describe what im imagining.

i see Rona, Anna, and the girl. sorta blocking the street/sidewalk a little.

standing in triangular formation.

there are many people walking by them. but its like they are covered by this protective shield bubble.

They are laughing and smiling alot.

And then they are praying and Rona is holding the girl's hand.

The girl's face is down and shoulder's are shaking. is she crying or laughing? i cant tell...

I open my eyes and Andy's grinning all big and his big ol' eyes are like about to pop outa his head.

mmm.....

he says lets go check it out. and so we turn the corner and see exactly what i said.

they are praying right now.

Andy and I high-five. and then realize that high-five was on his list.

ohhhhh snappppp.

after they are done. Andy asks Rona to tell us what happened.

and asks Rona about the things that i said.

and Rona confirms.

shweet....

i guess from the start i underestimated myself.

one cause i'm young and i feel like i'm not as "spiritually mature" as Rona or Andy.

but then i remembered the verse that came to my mind in the beginning.

that i didn't feel like/ have time to share.

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." - 1 Timothy 4:12

wow... this was such an awesome start to this gorgeous day.

God's going to teach me so much by the end of this semester.

putting faith into action.

i would like to learn please!

get lunch with the girls and then skip korean :D to go to myeongdong to shop!!

note to self* never shop with a bunch of girls in a crowded place.

i learned today that i am a boy. my shopping limit is an hour.

and i'm done for the day.

i felt like a mother today with 4 kids that i just wanted to put on those kid leashes.

every 2 feet. someone would disappear into some store or be ogling at stuff at some stand.

i'm losing track of my kids!! where did they go???

i just wanna sit :[ and eat......

finally after hours chee-ia, gina, and i head back.

while ariel and tina stay to shop some more o.O

ruthless.....how do they do it.

after i come back. i'm so exhausted but i go to EMMAUS.

today brother Marcus spoke.

and it was goooooooood. lots of amens and mmmmhmmms

like exactly what i needed to hear at that moment.

i just hope the seed falls into good soil and bears good fruit.

sometimes we get too choked up by the worries in life....

we need to stop wasting time.

will i let korea define me. or will i define korea.

"You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free"

i've been hearing this verse so many times since i got here. and especially today.

i always thought i knew what it meant. but i realize i have alot more to learn.

i will carry around this truth. for the rest of my time here. literally and figuratively.

I'm exhausted beyond belief.

stepping outside of my comfort zone.

it's so hard to care about people sometimes.

but some people are worth caring for

so my heart is at peace.
and even though it'll be hard for me at times to love them.
God's love is abundant.

I'm falling on my knees

Offering all my needs

Jesus You're all

This heart is living for

tonight i will have the best sleep ever.

goodnight :]