Day 67

imma be MIA for the next 2 days.

cause i shall be going to the EMMAUS retreat!

ahh so excited :D

today was a glorious sunny day.

going through my fast was alot easier.

just ran around felt the sunshine

yes im such a hippie sometimes.

film class today watched the saddest movie ever.

called May 18. about the gwangju massacre

like usually movies have that one epic sad moment.

but this one had literally like 10 potential cry moments.

i heard that girls were leaving class in the middle of the film

cause they were crying so hard.

i'll admit i had some tears streaming down my face.

if you like to cry go watch that movie.

i used to not cry at all. like maybe once a year.

but in korea i've just been changing.

and filled with empathy.

and now i cry like everyday...

need to switch to waterproof mascara.

skipped the second half of korean class.

to go get my hair did :D

yeah....everytime i get a hair cut.

it looks the same.

one day imma have a britney moment and just be like chop it all off!

and i'll still look the same...

thurs nights are familia nights <3

i love the girls and how we can be so real

more time of sharing and crying of course.

but it was quite encouraging.

afterwards marie is talking to me.

ah i love marie. she's so bubbly.

and she likes to talk alot.

i like people who talk alot

cause i'm kinda lazy so i like to listen.

she's just starts randomly sharing with me about alot of stuff.

and pouring out things she's never told anyone before.

i think that's my magical power.

i'm just chillin and people always tell me all their secrets.

which is good cause i felt like as she was talking there was restoration.

and the stuff she was sharing really applied to me as well.

so i was just sharing stuff with her too.

and as those words came out of my mouth.

there was healing.

mmmm God is so good.

i'm really grateful for the time i had with my sister Marie.

if you have anything that you've been struggling with.

just share with someone you trust and there will be restoration.

anyways i just want to encourage everyone to keep praying for NK.

they really need our prayers.

i'll have lots of cool stuff to share on sunday :D

goodnight

Day 66

Oh man today was hard.

first 24 hours of my 60 hour fast for EMMAUS retreat.

i was mad tempted by food everywhere.

stomach was growling from the sec i woke up.

Topics class today.

we had to present the sites that we went to.

ran out of time at the end. and i was like yes! dont gotta present.

but then grandma teacher was like dont forget to present next class :D

and then she started coughing.

so like the super woman i am. i whipped out my halls cough drops in a milasecond.

and was like here ya go!

and she was like "ohhh my thank you, you are so sweet"

yeahh hopefully she'll just let my part slide next class ;]

i had to watch erick eat a chicken burger in front of me today.

hardest thing i had to do in awhile.

and then in class we are still learning about grocery shopping!!!

so all we talk about is food. with pictures!!

and shrimp pictures!! ahhhh i love shrimp. more than bubba.

shrimp shrimp shrimp. chicken of the sea!

i wrote in my textbook. next to the food pics.

i hunger for the bread of life.

that which will never leave me hungry.

let me keep strong in my fast.

so that i may know no other hunger but a hunger and a thirst for the living God.

and that this weekend. may the hearts of the children turn to their father.

mmmm yeah that's right :]

and me being the smart person that i am.

decide to go watch my friends eat dinner.

chicken!!! TT.TT

and then more food afterwards.

and then street food.

and then cheesecake!!!

this is how i show my ultimate love for God and for my friends.

i already thank Him for the great things that will happen.

but i'm glad i came though

cause during dinner round 2 with the girls.

we had some deep talking. it was awesome.

and one of the questions that no one could really answer was.

what makes people good?

how do you know if you are a good or bad person.

by your actions? your heart?

where is the line that separates those who are good from those who are bad.

Jesus said to the people, "why do you call me good? No one is good but One, that is God"

from the beginning there has been a lie planted in the heart of mankind that they are good.

because if we are good. then we do not need God.

but the truth is "all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God"

humanity has been cursed with sin. it is in our nature.

and because God is good we cannot be with Him.

since good and evil cannot reside in the same cup.

but because of God's grace He sent His son Jesus Christ.

to cleanse us so that we may once again be good.

the way God intended us to be.

to live free of sin.

so that we may be with our Father again and know of His love.

tonight i just sat in my room and prayed with God.

and thanked Him for His love.

and i just was there you know.

all those times i heard of people who are just so filled with God's love.

and before when i was lukewarm i just sat there and was like man they are so hardcore. i wish i could be like that.

and finally i was like wow. i'm here. so this is what it's all been about.

David. who praised God fully. and God loved Him so much.

i understand now. and understood God's love for me

and God told me that I was so special

and that i was so beautiful.

my brothers and sisters.

God wants to show His love for you.

seek after Him.

ask and you will receive.

Day 65

Rise and shine to go to an art exhibit with Emma

for North Korea freedom week!!!

except we totally dont know where it is...

and end up walking around asking people for directions

except i do not know how to say art exhibit in korean.

so i'm just blurting out "North Korea".

and emma's like calm that down son dont wanna get scooped up and locked up somewhere for being spies.

we end up just giving up and going to this bookstore and dunkin donuts.

mmmm successful day. what an epic adventure it was.

korean reading day.

ahh so boring.

erick wasnt there so elisa was mad bullying me today.

i was so stressed out. i felt like an octopus.

they chew on their legs when they are stressed out.

i eat when i stressed too

except i dont eat myself. i eat other things.

today was a rainy gloomy day.

and like 5 people in our class were missing.

it is the perfect condition. to say "game" in class

cause it actually works.

yes i know teachers deep down dont really wanna teach on these kinds of days.

we played babo. (means stupid)

the game really does make you feel stupid.

it is not a very fun game. makes everyone playing very stressed out.

we are all octopus now.

before EMMAUS today i was just praying for the message today

and watching this youtube vid about this North Korean girl sharing her testimony.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ho9_rcmmAvY

ahhh it totally made me cry.

i feel like there is something major that is gunna happen in NK.

just have a heart for NK man.

Andy spoke at EMMAUS tonight.

i knew it was gunna be good so i told lots of people to come.

and they were mad bullying me -_____-

cause yes he is not ugly. but yeahh that was not the reason i thought it would be good!

you can really tell when someone truly loves God.

and i wanna be like that too.

be transformed from the inside out.

mmmm yes i feel it. bubbly bubbly :D

just embrace it.

after EMMAUS order chicken!!!

and while waiting for the chicken to come i couldnt take the hunger.

so i had to get my meat and rice box from GS.

better eat alot cause next 2 days i will be fasting and praying for the EMMAUS retreat.

its gunna be friggin awesome. i'm so excited.

but in the meanwhile

let all apathy be broken and

PRAY FOR THE NORTH KOREA GUYS!!!

that there will be great revivals and freedom in the land.

hope in the midst of hopelessness.

Day 64

ah today was sucha silly day.

rise and shine 3pm :]

shower power and all that good stuff

then skip off to korean class.

in class i find that Kuni the only other person i guess whose worse than me at korean

got better scores than me on the exam!

so i guess i did the worst..

ah....why am i still in this class..

but its okay! i solemnly claim that for the final i will do better than everyone!!

i always make the most epic comebacks.

which meant i should have started paying attention in class today.

but i was focused on drawing the characters in the workbook new and improved hairstyles!

now they look hot. pimp my hair.

today we learned about stuff in the grocery store.

and one of the words was gum with a korean accent.

except i misread the word and i thought it said cum?

and i was like what does cum mean?

as in what does that word mean in korean.

but ofcourse elisa had to be goofy about it.

and then Kuni since he's japanese was like what is so funny about this word cum?

and elisa gives him a very descriptive explanation of the word.

and he's like "uhhh..how do i response to that"

HAHAHAAHA. so cute.

then elisa proceeds to draw a very inappropriate picture.

and passes it around.

and cindy and erick do not want to touch it

so they pass it back and forth like a hot potato.

ahh good times in korean class.

after class i ate octopus balls with jay.

except they were scorching hot.

nice quote of the day "my mouth still burns from the octopus balls"

ah...so immature today.

went to namsan tower again today.

cause they have this thing where couples can write their names on a lock and throw the key away.

to symbolize endless love blah blah blah.

so jay and i went to buy a lock.

so we could proclaim our undying love for each other.

hahahahahahha sike........

that's not even funny.

nah it was so that jay could be the dork that he is and write his friends names with cute hearts around it on a lock

and proclaim their undying love on the top of the mountain. and then take pics of it to show his friends back home and giggle about it.

such a raging homosexual he is..

but its okay you're still my buddy jay.

except we got there too late and it was closing.
what a fail day.
but all is good cause i took the most epic picture of this cherry blossom tree with jay's intense camera.

i shall post it up later!!!!

afterwards try to hit up taco bell

but its closed TT.TT

so we go eat fried chicken ofcourse.

while we wait for the food i tell jay this story.

that i heard from Ravi Zacharias's address at the UN.

go look up his messages on youtube.

i love that man. so full of wisdom and knowledge.

It is a parable that comes from the east of a man who owned a lot of paintings, a very wealthy man who had a son. The son used to go into the city streets and would often talk to a beggar. The beggar took a liking to this young man and one day gave this young man a portrait he’d painted of him. So the young man took it to his father who was an art connoisseur and the father thought to himself, “Well, it’s not a very good painting, but we’ll hang it up in the gallery because it’s supposed to be of my son.”

Many, many years went by and the young lad stopped coming to visit the beggar. And the beggar finally went to the gates of the palace and said, “I don’t see that young man anymore.” The palace guards said, “Well, he died very suddenly.” The beggar was very unhappy to hear the news and he said, “Can I see his father?” And they said, “Yes.” The beggar said to the father, “I have done another picture of your son, just like the other one. I want you to have it.” He gave it to the father and the father, of course, hung up the painting beside the other one.

Not long afterwards, the father suddenly passed away too, and the beggar heard about it. He also heard that all the art in the palace was going to be auctioned. So he asked if he could go in. An auctioneer came and saw all the paintings on the walls, and the connoisseurs were there and they were all going to bid on them. There in the middle of this collection were hanging the two paintings of his son done by this beggar that were not very good at all.

The auctioneer said, “We’re going to have an auction, but the first paintings to go are the ones of the young lad here and then we’ll proceed with the rest.” They said, “We’re not interested in them, just get on with the….” He said, “No, no, we must begin with these.” But nobody bid. So the beggar put his hand in his pocket and took out a handful of pennies, and said, “I want to bid on the young man’s paintings.” And nobody else competed for the few pennies, the gavel was sounded, and he got the son’s portraits.

As the beggar took them and was about to leave, the gavel sounded again and the auctioneer said, “I have some news for you. Behind the paintings of this young man are the words, ‘Whoever bids on these gets the whole gallery.’”

He who got the son got everything that the father had to give. I present to you the very Son of God, the Lord Jesus Christ, who gives you all that His Father has to offer: eternity, morality, accountability and charity. When you know Him, you know the truth and that truth will set you free indeed, for you will live for it, present it, and this generation will listen.

that was the story i heard. but the one i told jay was quite less eloquent.
cause i kept forgetting stuff and it made no sense.

ahaha so he was like that was the stupidest story ever.

i'll make him read the real one.

I speak to them in parables; because while seeing they do not see, and while hearing they do not hear, nor do they understand

Let those who have ears, hear.

Day 63

happy easter!!!!

i will def wake up for Christ has risen!!

head to jubilee church with the girl i met on the bus christine

yesterday i sent a mass text to see who wants to go to church with me.

and like 7 people came :] yay.

on the way to jubilee i find out that

tim hwang (korean celeb) goes to that church!!

really i didnt know haha that wasnt the reason i wanted to go ^^"

and the pastor who caught my attention at the good friday service.

is tim's brother!!

oh mo nah.

now i'm really super excited.

but FOCUS. rebekah not going to church for celebs man.

but yeah....

ahh twinkle twinkle*

tim hwang led the choir

and he also sang.

it was the best 30 sec of my life.

such a beautiful voice.

from such a beautiful man.

guys. i think i'm in love.

rest of the time try to not focus on the fact that the love of my life is sitting in the same room as me.

and focus on the message.

Pastor Hwang talked about having true faith!

and how most christians fall into the category of sleepin.

basically chillin in their comfort zones. lukewarm.

P.Hwang says in order to know if you have real belief.

we will 1) have a heart of gratitude/ overwhelming thanks and joy

2) testify Jesus. spread the word and share our testimonies!

my whole christian life basically i've been lukewarm.

until very recently. like 2 weeks ago?

but now i hope i catch on fire and run with it !!!

the time is near when the words spoken will be fulfilled.

and so its time to wake up guys!!

do not let the owner of the house return to find you sleepin!

this is something i found yesterday

reading through all my old documents cause there was no Internet.

wrote this about a couple months before i came to korea.

life.

Some days I wait for excitement. Something out of the ordinary to happen. Something that will free me from the mundane and the routine. I fear sometimes that this is all my life will be. Wake up go to work. Come home. Eat. Watch some things on my computer. And start all over again. The things that make life worth living I suppose are the relationships that we have. When we don’t have these relations it gets so lonely, so pointless, so boring.

I guess this is why social networks spread like viruses. We have this longing to be connected with people. To let them know that we exist. To go out and have fun with our friends. Make new friends. Keep in touch with old friends. So it seems like there’s something different in our mundane lives.

I wonder sometimes how I can make life more interesting. I hold my spiritual life so dear to me because without God I would truly go insane without the prospect that there is something greater worth living for. Yet sometimes as a believer I’m trapped in this world in which the definition of a believer is someone who just routinely attends church every Sunday. 

Maybe this is why I’m excited for school to start. To study abroad. To be in a new environment, to be around new people. But at the same time in those places I’m sure things will also get mundane.

I suppose it’s true when they say everything is meaningless. I wish we could be able to live our lives to its full potential. If life is gift, why is it that sometimes it doesn’t feel like we are appreciative of this gift. More like am itchy sweater that you get at Christmas from your Grandma kind of gift.

I hope I learn to appreciate life. To see it more than just an everyday routine. To break free from the mundane cycle. 

i dont even remember writing this.

its funny how God answer's our prayers.

now that i have surrendered my life to God.

i have finally been set free.

and its the best feeling in the world.

"you will know the truth and the truth will set you free"

while Richard was arguing with me about christianity.

he said that its basically like being used by God.

but i told him. that no. God would never force us to do anything.

He only gives when WE decide to give our lives to Him.

and then we become a friend. not a servant.

for a servant does not know his master's business.

if you are waiting for that wa-bam moment.

seek a relationship with God. desire to know Him.

show Him that you love Him by abiding in His word.

offer Him all of you.  for He deserves not a part of you but all.

and He will give you all authority in heaven and on earth.

i'm starting to feel that my life will be taken to it's full potential.

everyday is filled with endless possibilities

and i'm excited for the days to come.

so beautiful.

Day 62

Sat, April 23 2011

I could not blog cause the Internet was down at the dorms!

gasp...how do we survive.

so we're forced to run outside and play.

still fasting so i watch chad and jay eat.

hold time i was tellin them how to eat.

lemme just pretend.

mmm yeah put that meat on the rice. mmm hmmm

and yamyamyam. yeah and some of that egg too.

inhale* ahhh.....

its okay though!

this kind of food will leave you hungry

but i long for the food that will never leave me hungry

and always keep me satisfied.

the bread that Jesus Christ gives us.

ooooohh!!! just now revelation i guess that what it means in the Lord's prayer

give us today our daily bread.

i always thought it meant literally food so we can survive.

but it means the Holy Spirit.

ah...i've been so blind.

but now i can see :]

afterwards watch Fast Five.

action movies always pump me up.

especially car ones.

makes you wanna drive really fast.

which is what i did the last time i watched Fast and Furious.

and totaled my car -_____-;

but its okay. i cant drive here in korea!

so it was safe to watch that movie.

was prettay good mayun.

ahh :] combine paul walker's looks with vin diesel's voice.

and wa la! twinkle twinkle :]

played some ball

and then as i said i would!!

finished the book of John.

its some deep stuff man.

i used to read it and not understand like 85% of it.

but now i can read it and not understand only like 40% of it.

i'm getting there.

real excited to go to jubilee church tomorrow

easter sunday :]

to celebrate that Jesus has risen!

and his spirit lives in me.

goodnight :D

Day 61

Today was quite a dreary day.

outside is all gloomy and whatnot.

so i'm feelin all down with the weather.

wake up after 4pm.

miss the first half of korean.

get to korean after break.

get the exams back.

mehh i did okay B average.

i'm in a very quiet mood today.

i'm like a little mouse.

i really dont have much energy

maybe its cause im fasting.

"the spirit is willing.

but the flesh is weak"

Go to Good Friday service at Onuri church.

i heard the story of the crucifixion of Jesus Christ so many times.

but today it just hit me.

how much God loves us.

the passage was on the garden of Gethsemane.

when Jesus was asking God that he may not die on the cross

because He could not bear to be separated from Him.

I could just imagine.

Jesus, his son, is in tears begging him to take away this responsibility.

and God saying no to His son.

i'm sorry my son for what I have to put you through.

but its the only way. the only hope for mankind.

for if you do not pay this price.

humanity cannot be saved.

and my daughter Rebekah will never be with me.

and for that I thank Jesus for the cross.

that through his flesh and the blood that was shed.

i may be with the Father.

and have eternal life.

because his spirit is with me.

out of all my days here.

i've never felt so hungry and weak.

but when i am weak then i am strong.

because today i felt the spirit so strongly within me.

and because that i had peace.

i left my group and headed back to the dorms by myself.

apparently everyone was looking for me ^^"

oops.

on the way back i met a girl who looks like a doll!

she is so cute. i think her name is either christy or christine?

but i found out that she goes to jubilee church.

and the pastor who prayed today during the service

is the pastor at jubilee church. and the whole way back i was thinking wow i really like how that pastor prayed. i wonder if i should check out jubilee church.

and then i meet this girl! and she says that she will take me there on sunday.

yay. i'm so excited for sunday to come.

i help gina order mcdonalds back at the dorm

and then i smell the mcdonalds

and all my food instincts are going crazy.

but no! i am fasting so i walk away.

mmm nice..

get back to my room.

today Erick told me that he read the whole book of John in one sitting

so i will try to do that too!

except...i only get to chapter 8 ^^"

ahh yes. i will finish it tomorrow though!

my friend back home richard tires me out even more on skype.

by trying to debate christianity with me.

but it was mostly him talking alot and me falling asleep.

and trying to order a swim suit on the korean forever 21 website.

but failing cause i cant read and understand korean that well.

i understand all of his points.

and they make sense.

honestly though i cannot fight his arguments.

and i dont have the answers to his questions.

i just know that what i know and understand is real.

and I simply put all my hope and trust in God love.

sometimes i wonder why i just believe.

but its just something you know is true.

like how you know in the morning the sun will rise.

i guess its true when they say that God is the one who calls.

i'm grateful that i have been called.

but because i love those around me. and i know the punishment of sin is eternal death.

i wish they would realize the truth as well.

cause i dont want anyone of them to suffer.

to the point where i rather die.

but i cant die for their sins. because i'm not perfect.

only Jesus is and he did.

and its up to them to believe.

i pray that i be a light.

that what i have. others want.

and they may know God's love through me.

and be baptized in the Holy Spirit.

so that they may also live.

Day 60

AHHH its DAY 60.
half wayyyy alreadayyy??!!

woke up bright and early to go study for my film exam with erick.
he has another class with our professor so he told me all the info that might be on the test.
all right super memorization skills power!
i'm so ready.
get to class.
get the exam.
look at the exam. first thing that comes out of my mouth is
"oh FUCK!"
let me paint a picture for ya.
the questions on the exam are from the textbook that i have not read.
or have even bought yet...
and about a movie that i have not seen cause i skipped class that day.
mmmm epic fail is an understatement.
I wish midterm exams were like SATs
so I could get points just for writing my name.

hour break. then its time to slaughter the korean exam.
no biggie biggie cant you see.
except i kinda dozed off during the listening part
and missed a couple questions..
but sall good.

get my korean food box from gs
baby hot dogs. so cute
yam yam yam.

i spend like 2 hours
on mymomisafob.com
ahhahahahahahahaahahaha its sho funnayy!
thanks lindsey kim for the link.
i was literally slappin my knee. laughin so hard.

went to Grand Mart with emma today :D
and i got pineapple!
we ate it with our bare hands like barbarians lost on a tropical island.
it was delish.

get back and eat my cereal too.
except i kinda also doze off while pouring my cereal.
and then its all over the place!!
and then i'm steppin on it and crunchin it while i'm trying to clean it up
disaster.
finally got my cereal in the bowl.
and then munchin munchin. and reading about asian people's mothers on the fob site.
and then cereal is flying out of my mouth. cause i'm laughin so hard.
"uh duk kkae!!"

here's the post that i spit out my cereal laughin
Mom: When you buying your ticket to Shanghai?
Me: Soon.
Mom: OK, make sure you fly from the airport… KFC airport.
Me: You mean JFK?

since i love chicken i found that one delightful.
after reading i doze off again.
dozing off alot today.
and then wake up to jay callin me for
chicken!!!!
ah i never get sick of you chicken.
i wish people could be like that.
just kidding :D i love everyone.

went to the sauna in the middle of the night.
and i got to smack cheeia's size D and a half boobies
ahhh it was like bboiiiiinnng oinggg oingggg
so jealous. i must eat more chicken so my boobies are like that.

tomorrow is Good Friday!!
i made sure to eat alot today.
cause from Good Friday to Easter Sunday I will be fasting and praying.
that I will grow in wisdom and favor.
and also for my friends too :]
expect great things guys.
good night :D

lol from mymomisafob.com

Day 59

11:00am.

must wake up to go to gyengosjfsljfalsj palace.

for our class group project with chris and chad.

mmmm way too tired for this.

lemme call chris to bail.

chris's phone is all static-ee

so whole time we're like "what what"

chris i'm not going. go without me!!!

what what?

chris? chris can you hear me????

AHHHHH.

so frustrated now. i'm awake.

i'm glad i woke up to go.

it was quite a lovely day.

cherry blossoms. clear skies.

pretty palace. pretty pond. pretty fish.

oohhh shalalalalalala.

mmmm i wonder if my ancestors the dal-sung suh shi clan lived in the palace.

i would be a court lady.

and disgrace my family like fa mulan.

mmmm yes i can totally see it.

i was quite mischevious at the palace today.

jumpin all over the place.

for the paper. gotta write the report for the sleeping quarters.

and to get that authentic feel i tried to sleep in the sleeping quarters.

and then got yelled at by the guard.

then i wanted to see the fishies in the pond.

and climbed over the do not cross little rope thingy

and then all these lil kids were there.

and i was creepin on them.

hey kids, "want some candy?"

mwahahahahaahahahaha.

ah....i'm so lacking sleep right now.

buy chris and chad icecream today.

see what a good friend i am!

and an even more awesome group member!! :D

please dont kick me out guys...

get back nap and then wake up for my korean examination.

mmm cindy says she could hear me making noises of expaseration.

like the exam wasnt hard...it was just so looonng.

6 pages of writing -___-;;

just wanted to get over with it.

last page. we have to write an essay using the grammar we learned.

i wrote about how much i love chicken.

here is the english translation for the essay.

My favorite food in korea is chicken. It's been a day since I've eaten chicken. I walk 10 min to go eat chicken. Because I really like chicken, it is unacceptable for me to not eat chicken. Chicken is cheap but yummy. It is always okay to go eat chicken with me.

yes. apparently later i find out that we had to write 10 sentences. And I only wrote 6.

hopefully my teacher also really likes chicken and cuts me some slack.

after exam get a chicken burger.

pre-dinner warm up.

i have 3 dinner dates today.

6:00, 8:00, and 10:00pm.

oh boy. lemme think.

drink ice tea at the 6:00 dinner and combine the 8:00 and 10:00 one together with korean bbq.

and then eat at iceberry for dessert.

genius.

its midterm week here.

and i feel like i'm the only one not freaking out about midterms.

mama tina says she's very frustrated by my wasting of intelligence.

and then i get an email from my asian mother.

Hi Rebekah I am glad you have good time.This is great time in your life.But remember to stay focused play and enjoy but also study well. You are preparing oyour future now. Don't study just enough to be OK study enough to be your very best.You have been bla ssed by God with great intelligence. Use it wisely.

mmm. that was quite moving.

sigh......i know i'm a slacker. its in my snorlax nature.

but it is true. i need to live up to my potential.

i'm gunna change the world guys!

and influence many lives (in a good way i hope)

next email i get from my mother.

"Rebekah I'm eating junk food because you didn't send text me."

HAHAHAHA. that's cute. i can imagine her killing that family size bag of chips while she waits for me to email back.

mmmm got my eating skills from my mother.

goodluck on midterms everyone!

dont stress~

keep that healthy balance between school and life.

good night :D

"hey kids, want some candy?"

hahahahahahaha. i love this pic of chris.

Day 58

wake uppppp

eating cereal

waiting for my money to transferr

please money transferr

so i dont have to eat cereal no moreee

i feel like i should send those lyrics to rebecca black.

mmm that would make another good hit.

actually eating cereal and being sick/not so hungry all the time.

has opened my eyes to appreciate other things in life besides food.

it has been quite enlightening.

i think i'm gunna go on a fast from good friday to easter.

and maybe another one before the EMMAUS retreat.

yeahhh its gunna be good.

korean reading exam test day!!!

ahhhhhhh.

i'm in the auditorium and my class in not there??

call up homeboy erick.

sike....mm i see. tomorrow's test is in the auditorium and today's test is in normal classroom.

shuffle shuffle over to the classroom.

reading test

pull out all my tissues

try to get the teacher's sympathy with my sniffles

poker face. she says she's sick too.

okkkkkk then plan b. lemme bust out my hidden skills.

i think everyone was expecting a much slower pace.

but surprise!

i can read when i concentrate.

no problemooooo

EMMAUS today was veryyy

spiritually uplifting and deep.

sike we just played games today cause its midterm week.

TABOO!!!!!!

no one could mess with our cereal team.

yes we had teams. and my team was the Cereal team.

and i was Captain Crunch. mwhaahaha.

i'm so competitive when it comes to taboo.

it just makes me so jumpy and excited.

word is Cupid.

cant say arrow. love. etc. etc.

naked angel baby that flies around and makes people happy!!!!!

yes. and that is how you play tabooo.

first place. i'm proud of you team cereal.

haha speaking of taboo.

just reminds me of when judy and i were on the same team playing taboo.

she was like rebekah you know that phrase i always say!!

"I laughed so hard my sombrero falls off and i drop my ______"

what??? when have you ever said that.

you know what i'm talking about!

i really dont.

i say it all the time!!

you really dont.

time runs out.

what was the word?

taco.

this girl...

cant eat with the emmaus people afterwards

cause i dont have money TT.TT

back in my room eating cereal -____-

this is so sad. lemme check my balance.

yayyyyy some of the money transferred!!!

forget you cereal!

i'm having a mcdonalds party in the lobby :DD

my stomach is happy.

food coma.

goodnight :D

Day 57

marrrfff wake up for my 1:00pm topics class.

only got 5 hours of sleep TT.TT

that is 7 hours less than what i should be getting.

took attendance in Topics and then left during break

like a legit hoodlum.

sorry Grandma teacher i love you and all

but i need to go back to my room to take a nap.

eat some cereal from my giganto cereal box.

my money needs to transfer like now.

dont know how long i can keep surviving on cereal.

nap time.

except my coughing virus has been activated.

twice a year i get these massive cough attacks.

that cannot be treated with any kind of medicine.

and becomes more intense when i lie down.

so i was coughing my brains out.

and then uh oh.......the cereal is coming out!!!

run to the bathroom.

throw up the cereal.

then smell the nastiness of the bathroom.

and throw up some more.

mmmm yummmy....

i feel so sick.

but i cant skip korean class.

cause ive aleady skipped so much and i gotta save my hours.

Stone face asks me if i'm feeling okay.

she says i'm supah pale. but it looks good.

she says i look better when i'm sick...

mmm got that whole korean drama dying of cancer romantic love story thing goin on right now.

i tell her i threw up before class.

she's like mmm that's nice...

then tells me to answer the question...

i dont know what's going on man...i'm so sick.

stone face was so mean to me today TT.TT

i'm super not paying attention to anything.

and she totally knew.

so she must have called on me like 10 times today.

and i just sat there. i refuse to answer right now.

one time i was laughing with erick. and she said something to me.

i thought she was yelling at me. so i hid.

but really it was my turn to answer the question...

and everyone was waiting for me..

but i was hiding...

ahh....how embarassing...

awkward starfish*

since i couldnt nap today cause of my coughing.

to keep myself awake i wrote a story.

its called "The Spider and The Butterfly".

They say a spider and a butterfly can’t be friends

But one day a certain butterfly was caught in a spider's web

And as the spider was about to bite the butterfly

The butterfly said "wait! Please let me go"

"Why should I let you go?"

“I have things yet to experience in the world"

“I do not negotiate with my dinner"

"Please sir let me go. If you let me go I will show you the world from the skies,

The view from my eyes."

Now the spider thought to himself. He had never seen the world from the skies.

No spider had ever been to the sky. But most days as he waited for his victim to be tangled in his web.

He would stare and admire the sky. Some days wishing that he could fly as well. Fly away from the ground.

His mundane life. Always weaving and waiting.

A spider's life is a lonely life.

"Why should I trust you" the spider asked. "How do I know that you won't just fly away?"

"You can always trust a butterfly. But if my word is not enough for you. Weave a string and tie it onto my leg and onto yours and that can be the bond of trust between us"

So the spider wove a strong string and tied it between him and the butterfly.

Then he broke the web around the butterfly.

"Get on my back" the butterfly said. "And hold on tight"

And off they flew away.

That day was the best day of the spider's life.

And that day the butterfly survived to tell the best story of her life.

The End.

i told jay my story today

he thinks it's the most stupidest story he's ever heard.

apparently it has no lesson.

but i like it.

the lesson is about friendship, trust, and taking chances. duh!

imma draw supah cool pictures for it later.

finish my poli paper.

supposed to write 1200 words

but i give up on 1047 words.

about 800 of those words i "roughly paraphrased" this article.

:D

i wonder what the plagiarism standards are in korea...

so......guess what i ate for dinner today.

if you guessed chicken then that is correct.

i think this semester i ate an entire chicken farm.

jay and i were so excited cause today!

we were gunna get 2 chicken sets.

and then we got it.

and then 30 min later we were like omg..

why did we get this much chicken

this is supposed to feed 4+ people.

but we ate it all. it was good but painful.

never. do that again.

i think i'm gunna take a break from chicken.

so i wont eat anymore chicken until the day after tomorrow.

tomorrow. it is korean reading test day.

i have to read alot in front of the whole class.

and get graded on it.

so i'm gunna practice.

or its gunna get real forest gump tomorrow.

good luck future Rebekah.

goodnight :D

Day 56

Kleenex and Halls have been my best friends today.

stuffy nose turns into massive cough attack.

please pray for me TT.TT

so yeah....waking up in the morning for church

obviously did not work out today

since i woke up at 3:00pm...

korean bbq with emma and jay :D

the old man there recognizes me.

woman why you always eating!

today i get my super cute supah flyyy

black mickey mouse earphones!

since i accidentally left my other ones in the sauna clothes pocket

and threw it in the hamper...

i also realize that today is the day i'm officially broke.

like literally i only have coins left.

so tempted to use erick's retreat money that he gave me to give to tina...

but i've left my hustlin ways in the past.

so dont worry erick its safe.

the money transfer is gunna take 3-5 business days.

until then i survive on cereal.

got this big giganto box. that came with a free glowing bouncy ball :D

bounced it all around seoul today. boing boing.

and this lil girl was like "look ma! i got the same one at home too!"

shweeet.

get back and should work on my poli paper that's due tomorrow.

but i lay in my bed dying from my allergies/sickness.

and act out a dramatic scene like i'm in a korean drama.

and i'm dying on the hospital bed.

cough cough*

tell so and so i love him. raspy voice* tear. dead.

ahhh this is no fun.

download shanghai knights and watch it.

laugh. cough. laugh. cough.

jay and i go chicken eating again....

this is the third night of chicken massacre.

why is chicken so good.

one of life's greatest mysteries.

what would i do without my buddy jay

who feeds me and buys me tissues.

i know i take you for granted.

but lately I thank God for meeting you.

you are my BFFN. (best friend for now).

get back and work on my poli paper

write half of it in record time.

only regret changing my major

is wasting my skill of bsing poli papers.

such a pity. it was a great talent.

i know its due tomorrow.

but i give up and make pretty flowers with hershey kiss wrappers

and watch friends episodes.

mmmm it is 7:44am.

good morning :D

Day 55

ok this beginning part might get real cliche sounding but gotta keep an open mind and think real hard.
its deep stuff.

last night i am on google and i get the impression
to look up what a butterfly symbolizes
it's a symbol of transformation.
and also of keeping our faith while we undergo this transformation.
i feel that i'm transforming right now.
and this month is a really critical stage for me.
gotta keep strong.
cause once i'm done.
like a butterfly getting released from its cocoon.
i'll be set free.
"you will know the truth. and the truth will set you free"

and then i realized i guess my whole christian life
up until this point. ive been a caterpillar/ cocoon.
growing and waiting patiently up until this point.
and finally i'm changing.
i used to think the transforming part happens over a gradual period of time.
but see the transforming part is actually pretty short.
it's the living like a caterpillar part that's long.
are you a caterpillar, a cocoon, or a butterfly?

funny how God speaks to us through nature.
i'll be different by the end of this semester.

wake up in the morning (3:00pm)
feelin like i cant breath.
too much snot in my nose.
mmm....so attractive...
attack of the pretty flowers!
i'm not very excited for these cherry blossoms anymore..
went to go eat fried chicken again with jay
the chickens in korea better beware
of the chicken killers Jakah.
kutttaaa!

today was quite uneventful.
i wish i had something exciting to share.
just me lying in bed dying from the sniffles
and watching shanghai noon.
puahaha i love that move :D
ish sho funnayyy

room is so stuffay
decided i needed to go out
but cant do any kind of active activities cause i'm sick
so its sauna time!!!
just eating and lying around.
snorlax lvl 99 is back.
watched some Friends.
judy if you're reading this i miss watching friends with you and eating dino nuggets.
ahhh i wish i could be a character in friends.
i like chandler he's so ackward and funny.
elevators are really ackward by the way.
and its even more ackward when someone (erick) says its ackward outloud
while its ackward silence in a crowded elevator.
or when i pull out my chicken burger. and start nomnomnoming on it.
and everyone in the elevator is watching me eat.
yes... very ackward....awkward starfish* plop.

goodnight everyone.
may your days be congestion free.

Day 54

i am so drunk with the Spirit.

everyday this week has been amazing. twinkle twinkle

woke up around 2:00pm :D

prayed for my frands for awhile
you know who you are ;]

did some productive stuff for once in my life

4:00pm on my way to class when Jay calls me to eat.

eh i'm already late anyways.

and i'm hungry.

so we had a cereal date. it was quite nice.

i like cereal alot. its just so simple and crunchy.

and you dont feel guilty after eating it.

5:00pm stroll into class during break.

we had to do our presentations during the first half of class.

that i missed :]

stone face asks me if i'm ready to do my presentation.

i tell her no. i have allergies.

allergies is my excuse for everything.

she says "so....you didn't prepare for the presentation because you have allergies"

yes.

okay then...

ah yes stone face you get cooler in my eyes everyday.

then she calls out the oblivious japanese guy Kuni during class.

we always laugh at the things he does. cause its just so friggin hilarious.

but stone face is like. he's only funny cause he's not good at korean.

oh snapp haha stone face that was mean but funny.

haha it's funny how she's mean but not really.

i like people like that.

after korean class.

we go to spagettini!!

and have a massive carb attack.

it was delish~

i really like bread alot. but not as much as chicken.

i legitly have allergies.

and the sniffles sniffles.

so i was planning to head back right after dinner.

but one thing led to another.

and i was getting boba. playing pong (with water cups)

nrbing. and then eating chicken?

somehow didnt get back until 3:00am.

ahh nrb was so fun.

first time nrb since i got here!

singing my heart out and then coughing cause of my sore throat. and then singing again.

my singing is not good. but i like singing.

no scrubs. and u got it bad. my songs yooo

erick. la shawn. olivia. good times :D

olivia is the nrb queen! she got a superstar voice.

afterwards i'm like "fried chicken?"

and they're like yeahhhhh.

we're not hungry. but we want chicken.

killed it. pwakkk!

i have just been so joyful and encouraged these days.

i think the friends i made here must think i've always been like this.

but honestly i've changed alot. used to hate people and was kinda emo.

it's amazing how God can transform lives.

lol they say i act like i'm on drugs.

but really i'm drunk with the Holy Spirit.

the good kind. where you dont get sick or hangovers in the morning.

just wake up.

to feel God smiling on you.

and thinking it's gunna be good day :D

today made my schedule for the Fall.

i dont know how i did it.

sometimes i really underestimate my level of geniusness.

15 credits of perfection.

no class thurs or fri.

all easy classes with awesome profs and all required for my major/ graduation requirements.

and most importantly all after 2pm.

Day 53

Since monday night i can feel myself learning, growing, and being tested.

My homie Erick escorts me to the bank today so i could deposit that large wad of cash money.

haha mmmmm i wish it was all mine....

this morning i find out that i have a total of $7 left.

must make some transfers immejiately...

Erick being the good friend that he is buys me lunch :D

and we have some good meaningful God talk.

i underestimated you Erick Kim. thought you were a total goofball.

But people are full of surprises.

I've been attacked alot today.

by allergies...POLLINATION >:[

the price we pay for pretty flowers..

and then my allergies turned into a cold?

i dont know just felt like i was dying.

but i wont let that effect me.

after korean class

wanted to just snuggle under my covers.

but took that hour bus ride to go to familia (small group)

the bus driver was driving Tokyo Drift style

i wonder how many people fell on the bus today...

even though im dying i can still eat.

korean bbq :D

eat that pig. nuff nuff

familia was good today.

i'm realizing how hurt people really are.

how much of a front we put.

society has taught to just act like everything's good.

but wow... people come from broken families and struggle with alot of personal things.

healing and deliverance my friends.

today we learned about the Holy Spirit.

that the Holy Spirit = Truth.

"you will know the truth and the truth will set you free"

"you will know the Holy Spirit and the Holy Spirit will set you free"

alot of christians feel distant from God.

stuck in religion.

cause they don't know the Holy Spirit. or feel his presence.

but trust me once you experience the Holy Spirit. your life will be changed.

it'll get real fun.

you can feel things you never felt before. and understand things that could not be attained through earthly knowledge.

that's what it means to "open your eyes and ears"

the only way to grow as a Christian and have a living relationship with God.

read his word and pray for the Spirit my brothers and sisters.

Mama Tina shared a story with us about the power/ example of the Holy Spirit.

There was this sister just you know chillin during sunday service.

and all the sudden she felt the Holy Spirit tell her that she should go up and do a cartwheel.

in front of everyone...while service was going on.

and she was like no..no way...that's crazy right.

but she felt that tug in her heart. so she listened.

went up in front of the congregation and did a cartwheel in the middle of service.

now everyone must have been like wtf...

and that sister was prolly like ahhh God why did you have me make a fool of myself.

but here's the funny thing.

right after service. another sister approached that sister and told her this.

"i've been struggling with doubt and so I said to God if you really are real.

let someone go up and do a cartwheel."

be empowered with the Holy Spirit.

even though im so tired

i am so encouraged.

goodnight :]

Day 52

Today was such a bomb diggity day.

just felt the Lord's favor on me.

just full of sillyness, laughter, and joy.

pasta wed lunch with chee-ia

and then we go hunt around campus for Big Bang posters

but we couldnt find any to snatch

ahh....cheeia she is so funny...

Topics class to Film through Korean.

Erick and I were just on crack..

laughin about stupid things

and freestylin in conglish..

cindy sat between us and stared at us with her big ol' eyes..

she says we are dumb and dumber.

"ok well erick's dumber then. and i'm dumb"

oh wow.....i just heard myself say that...

Stone face makes us practice conversation with the person next to us.

of course i didnt practice with my partner...

but then she makes us go around and read outloud and times us!!

ohemgee...im partners with kuni! who is the only slower reader in class besides me.

so basically he's the slowest.

and so ofcourse we get the slowest time. and there is a punishment!

we have to go around the entire class and let them hit us on the forearm...

omg....this would so be illegal in the US...

both our arms are so pink....TT.TT

after class we go hiking in Namsan!

now this hike is nothing like the other mountain of DEATH.

its all pretty and cute.

but still there were moments when the uphill climb was just burning my glutes and thighs.

and i was like to tina "hey tina.....why dont we just sneak back and go eat Panda King"

but tina says she never gives up.

so we trek on like warriors. it was worth it.

the girls today are so funny.

i have too many quotes cant keep track of it.

but here are the ones i wrote on my hand.

we're waiting in the subway for the train.

and we see that there are ALOT of people today.

everyone's commenting on that. and all the sudden randomly and loudly..

tina's like "omg. I haven't had sex in such a long time."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA what???

Ann is really skinny. so her legs dont touch.

she's complaining about how she "can't close her legs"

and tina swoops in and says" yeah...that's what simon says"

oh hal-mae.....

on the way down the mountain. we get lost and lose the group but sall good.

we make alot of animal noises the whole way down.

Ann is from Sweden. so we ask her what kind of noises Swedish people have for animals.

pig: nuff nuff.

chicken. kuttaaaaa!

AHAHAHA too funny...

cheeia " i really want wings" (like the wings that make you fly)

me: oooohh chicken wings??

we get KFC later muahahahaha...

at Namsan tower. they have this thing where couples go buy a lock and attach it to this fence.

and then throw the key away.

basically to symbolize their endless love.

lol....i wonder how many of these couples break up..

that would totally suck man...

i'm at this place. and staring at all these locks.

staring at the gorgeous city scenery.

appreciating life.

and thinking i guess about endless love.

start praying and declare to God that hey i may not have some boy to climb up this mountain to declare our undying love for each other. but Father I have your abundant love.

and right now that's all i need.

do my imaginary lock with God and throw the key away in my head.

:D

i get back from this glorious day.

and i find that i have a very encouraging fb msg about my blog from my friend back home!!

shout out to Lindsey Kim.

you will be in my prayers.

jay's callin me to eat -___-

the vicious cycle starts again.

mmmm but its okay i'll be chubby for ya buddy.

goodnight :D

may your lives be filled with endless love

cheeia finally snatches her big bang poster....on the streets....

lockets

Cheeia; I want a pair of wings,
Rebekah; chicken wings?
Cheeia: I would take Redbull instead...@_@