Letters
Dear me in the future
Right now i am 17 years old.
i am worried about what i'm going to get on the SAT, what college i'm going to get into, or if i am going to die
a girl who never had a boyfriend.
oh yeah and the girl who never had a car or a job or a future
my favorite food is mashed potatoes
i currently really like this guy. or i think i do. his name is _____ hopefully you'll remember
i have bad acne :[ hopefully it will clear up
i am a junior at glenelg high school. everything is pretty much boring but i am still happy and optomistic
my advice always is "just go with the flow" and "do not worry about tommorow for tommorow will worry about itself"
i wonder if i will go to prom?
right now i am thinking about a major in International Relations
and i want to make a difference in the world? will i ? hopefully
anyways in the future. i hope to be a self-confident, funny, strong, brave, compassionate, open minded lady
but if not. remember that God will always love you and be there for you no matter what situation you are in.
Love you always,
Rebekah Eunjie So
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What I wrote in response to "Rebekah from the past"
Wednesday November 23, 2011
Dear Rebekah,
You are now 20 years old. You did really well on the SATs better than all your friends (2150). you got a full scholarship to UMBC. And you finally have a boyfriend who you love very much ;]
You driven like 4 different cars already an Audi, Lexus, Toyota, and now an Acura TL. And you have an awesome job tutoring, making three times as much hourly than most college students do.
Your favorite food now is shrimp and like everything cause you love eating.
You no longer like this guy. You have a much better one for you now who actually likes you back you dork.
Your acne has all cleared up :]
You're a junior at UMBC. You're life has been filled with fun things and excitement.
You're advice is still the same. Thanks for it. New advice i would give you is: LOVE.
You went to prom and had a fun time.
Your major now is Psychology and you actually find it interesting.
I'm not sure if you made a difference in the world but i'm sure you've made a difference in a lot of people's worlds.
You're getting there and God's grace has definitely been on your life. Thanks for reminding me how cute we are and how much God loves us.
Truly if you look at everything. He has given you all your hopes, dreams, and desires and He will continue to pour His blessing on you. Be sure to thank Him always and look on the bright side of everything.
Love you always,
Rebekah Eunjie So
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Tuesday 3/13/18
Dear Rebekah,
You are turning 27 next week. and your life is a mess.
right now you're trying to focus on getting enough hours to complete your internship, finishing your doc paper, graduate, figure out where you're going to live, and get a job.
HAHA but Rebekah in the future will be reading this and laughing because it'll all work out. you already know that.
but my question is even if it all works out. will I eventually be happy again?
I was reading the two entries above and saw how it all worked out.. and then how it all crumbled again..
if I were to write a letter to my past I'd tell her at this point to just die...
I know it's harsh and dark but it's like this is what will happen..
you will end up losing everything..
those cars gone, that job gone, college gone..
you still like shrimp though...
you will lose the only guy you ever loved and think that you will find someone else. but instead you will continue to get your heart broken. 6 years later you will still be in pain...
you will go through a period of time right before grad school when you will even lose your best friend who you've known since you were in pre-k because of circumstances outside of your control. you will be so confused and exhausted. you will think you've lost her forever, but in time God will redeem your friendship. so that one has a happy ending, but sort of. because when you actually get close again...you will be separated by physical distance.
you will move to California and suffer a lot in grad school. you will gain a lot of weight. you will go through years without having a best friend in your proximity. and then you will find close friends again. and then when you do you will have to move again to Kansas.
you will go through the hardest months of your life in Kansas. you will experience health issues and be throwing up multiple times a day. you will be so confused and exhausted again. you will lose friendships. you will be isolated. you will be in so much pain you won't want to live anymore.
but you will live. and maybe one day be glad that you did.
you will experience love and care from people who still made the effort to keep in touch with you even though you wanted to disappear. your love and care for your clients will hopefully ease their pain. you are not as alone as you think you are.
if you were to actually know all this ahead of time. you would probably be terrified. perhaps you would have done things differently to avoid the pain. but perhaps the pain in life is inevitable. and it is through the pain of Jesus that brought you life. God is not about avoiding pain but redeeming pain for his glory. so brace yourself. be brave. trust God for he cares for you more than you will ever know. and he will be with you in all of this. even though you may question that a times. it won't change who he is.
you had hoped when you were 17 to be "a self-confident, funny, strong, brave, compassionate, open minded lady" and maybe everything you've gone through is to develop in you who you hoped to be.
hopefully it'll all be worth it.
Love you always,
Rebekah Eunjie So
Right now i am 17 years old.
i am worried about what i'm going to get on the SAT, what college i'm going to get into, or if i am going to die
a girl who never had a boyfriend.
oh yeah and the girl who never had a car or a job or a future
my favorite food is mashed potatoes
i currently really like this guy. or i think i do. his name is _____ hopefully you'll remember
i have bad acne :[ hopefully it will clear up
i am a junior at glenelg high school. everything is pretty much boring but i am still happy and optomistic
my advice always is "just go with the flow" and "do not worry about tommorow for tommorow will worry about itself"
i wonder if i will go to prom?
right now i am thinking about a major in International Relations
and i want to make a difference in the world? will i ? hopefully
anyways in the future. i hope to be a self-confident, funny, strong, brave, compassionate, open minded lady
but if not. remember that God will always love you and be there for you no matter what situation you are in.
Love you always,
Rebekah Eunjie So
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What I wrote in response to "Rebekah from the past"
Wednesday November 23, 2011
Dear Rebekah,
You are now 20 years old. You did really well on the SATs better than all your friends (2150). you got a full scholarship to UMBC. And you finally have a boyfriend who you love very much ;]
You driven like 4 different cars already an Audi, Lexus, Toyota, and now an Acura TL. And you have an awesome job tutoring, making three times as much hourly than most college students do.
Your favorite food now is shrimp and like everything cause you love eating.
You no longer like this guy. You have a much better one for you now who actually likes you back you dork.
Your acne has all cleared up :]
You're a junior at UMBC. You're life has been filled with fun things and excitement.
You're advice is still the same. Thanks for it. New advice i would give you is: LOVE.
You went to prom and had a fun time.
Your major now is Psychology and you actually find it interesting.
I'm not sure if you made a difference in the world but i'm sure you've made a difference in a lot of people's worlds.
You're getting there and God's grace has definitely been on your life. Thanks for reminding me how cute we are and how much God loves us.
Truly if you look at everything. He has given you all your hopes, dreams, and desires and He will continue to pour His blessing on you. Be sure to thank Him always and look on the bright side of everything.
Love you always,
Rebekah Eunjie So
---
Tuesday 3/13/18
Dear Rebekah,
You are turning 27 next week. and your life is a mess.
right now you're trying to focus on getting enough hours to complete your internship, finishing your doc paper, graduate, figure out where you're going to live, and get a job.
HAHA but Rebekah in the future will be reading this and laughing because it'll all work out. you already know that.
but my question is even if it all works out. will I eventually be happy again?
I was reading the two entries above and saw how it all worked out.. and then how it all crumbled again..
if I were to write a letter to my past I'd tell her at this point to just die...
I know it's harsh and dark but it's like this is what will happen..
you will end up losing everything..
those cars gone, that job gone, college gone..
you still like shrimp though...
you will lose the only guy you ever loved and think that you will find someone else. but instead you will continue to get your heart broken. 6 years later you will still be in pain...
you will go through a period of time right before grad school when you will even lose your best friend who you've known since you were in pre-k because of circumstances outside of your control. you will be so confused and exhausted. you will think you've lost her forever, but in time God will redeem your friendship. so that one has a happy ending, but sort of. because when you actually get close again...you will be separated by physical distance.
you will move to California and suffer a lot in grad school. you will gain a lot of weight. you will go through years without having a best friend in your proximity. and then you will find close friends again. and then when you do you will have to move again to Kansas.
you will go through the hardest months of your life in Kansas. you will experience health issues and be throwing up multiple times a day. you will be so confused and exhausted again. you will lose friendships. you will be isolated. you will be in so much pain you won't want to live anymore.
but you will live. and maybe one day be glad that you did.
you will experience love and care from people who still made the effort to keep in touch with you even though you wanted to disappear. your love and care for your clients will hopefully ease their pain. you are not as alone as you think you are.
if you were to actually know all this ahead of time. you would probably be terrified. perhaps you would have done things differently to avoid the pain. but perhaps the pain in life is inevitable. and it is through the pain of Jesus that brought you life. God is not about avoiding pain but redeeming pain for his glory. so brace yourself. be brave. trust God for he cares for you more than you will ever know. and he will be with you in all of this. even though you may question that a times. it won't change who he is.
you had hoped when you were 17 to be "a self-confident, funny, strong, brave, compassionate, open minded lady" and maybe everything you've gone through is to develop in you who you hoped to be.
hopefully it'll all be worth it.
Love you always,
Rebekah Eunjie So
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