I give up
I have completely lost my shit at this moment.
I have given up. I don't have hope. I am not grateful.
God is cruel..I want to punch him in the face.
I am not going to make up some bullshit. I am not going to try to stay positive. I've had enough. I'm done.
If it weren't for my family I would 99.9% end my miserable life. but because of them I will 99.9% not.
This is not a cry for help. Do not reach out to me. It's like I swear Susan if you try to encourage me with a bible verse or some meaningful explanation for suffering I will smack you in the face.
This is me venting. And watching to see what happens. I'm putting this on my blog and not going to delete it later because I want to be able to look back on this moment of authenticity and learn something from it.
I have given up. I don't have hope. I am not grateful.
God is cruel..I want to punch him in the face.
I am not going to make up some bullshit. I am not going to try to stay positive. I've had enough. I'm done.
If it weren't for my family I would 99.9% end my miserable life. but because of them I will 99.9% not.
This is not a cry for help. Do not reach out to me. It's like I swear Susan if you try to encourage me with a bible verse or some meaningful explanation for suffering I will smack you in the face.
This is me venting. And watching to see what happens. I'm putting this on my blog and not going to delete it later because I want to be able to look back on this moment of authenticity and learn something from it.
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