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Sometimes you have to draw it out...


California

sooooooo update from Cali

to be honest I had mixed feelings about moving here. 18 year old Rebekah would have been like "that's my dream!!!" but ahahahaha I guess now I feel "old" and I'm at the point where moving to another state and starting a new life is not really exciting. I rather just chill in my comfortable home and have my mom feed me and hang out with the friends who know the "real" me etc...

the first two weeks? (I can't even keep track of time anymore) have been interesting...
I felt like I was here physically but not mentally/emotionally if that makes sense. I think the first week I was like who am I...am I dreaming....what is life.....lol

at some points it was like wow. it's really just me and God. I have truly left everything behind. and it's not like study abroad in Korea where I'm like away from home, wooooooo partayyyy, everything is so fun!
this is I'm away from home and this is real life. and I got a monster schedule waking up at 6:50am to get ready and go to class. and readings and papers due already...

ahahaha turns out also that I am not diligent in gradschool either....
our professors explained that most gradschool students are neurotic. I guess I am an exception...

this is random. but sometimes I feel like an earthquake is going to hit out of nowhere. actually kind of excited for my first earthquake here. but anyways or something else is going to happen. like I'll drop out of the program and give up. or I'll get kidnapped while walking around my neighborhood (the sunset/evening weather is really nice btw)

but whenever I think those neg thoughts. I remind myself that God did not bring me all the way out here to harm me but to prosper me. I'm going to be challenged, it's going to be painful at times. but I'm going to grow. and learn. and thrive. this education is not only for me but for people I have yet to meet.

there are really good things as well. I actually love my professors here. I love how freely we can talk about God and spiritual things in class. they even pray for us! it's like everything makes sense. and they know how to teach. and one time I was sitting in class and I was like this is fun! wow I have never used the adj "fun" to describe a class...

also as I was walking around campus I realized that Biola's mascot is an eagle! and so was Yonsei's. my favorite bird (besides chicken only because that's my fav animal to eat) but yeah the eagle represents alot of things for me...I take it as a good sign.

I'm thankful to have gotten into this program cause alot of people I saw at the interview did not seem to have made it into the program...and this program seems like it'll really equip me to become the best psychologist...

speaking of becoming a psychologist. apparently I test on undergrads this semester and get my first client next semester! ahahahaha....can't believe they trust us....this is real life...

I don't know if I'll ever be ready to become a "professional" but I guess I have matured in a lot of ways even since I made this blog. sometimes I read my old entries and I'm like I kinda miss that young, ridiculous girl...she was fun. and now I'm like blahhhh. but I guess I'll learn how to balance fun and professionalism. even though I'll always be secretly weird and silly.

I noticed I say "I guess" alot. and in life "I guess" you're never really certain about alot of things. especially in the field of psychology....

we'll see what happens....
mood: somewhat excited. aka something that I probably won't expect will happen. oh life.

aha first week of school I got lost and jumped this wall. ended up scraping my stomach and arms. rough day....

my roomies

my "apartment" complex 

so beautiful view walking around


my cohort

my roomies and I eating chicken then bingsoo! 

my bomb diggity apartment